:)

I was going through some pictures and I saw one of my little sisters & I during the Regent Rampage Rally and I had a random flashback to Regent Rampage when I was a frosh & how I took one with my big sister.  It’s been, what, a good two years since we took the picture that’s set as our default, right? A lot of things have happened since I last blogged on here, and maybe I’ll save those stories for another time…but anyways, I just wanted to tell you that you were/still are a great big sister & I hope everything is going well for you. Stay safe big sis & ily!

<3 Little

Hola! :)

This is my extended break from studying being used, haha. Even though I only have 1 more day to study and I feel COMPLETELY unprepared. G’damn. Anyways. Hm, what’s happened? I don’t even know. ahha. I’ll just start from whatever I can from as far back as I can remember.

Yeah, of course I still like Alex. Oh well. I guess I always will, but I don’t really care what happens. I’m fine with just being friends with him. He’s talking to this other girl in Confirmation. And for this one time, I’m actually alright with him talking to her. She’s nice. I just didn’t like the other girls, including your cousin, haha. Just saying. :). But there was one day, where Alex, Ashley (Yeah, ashley lopez. shes one of the leaders), and I made a bet. We had to get our talk to our crush and get their phone number. So I talked to Edward. But at some point to me, I didn’t want him to talk to her and I wanted to get him jealous. I’m now talking to 3 guys. haha. Edward, is a HOT man. I’d scale him a 9 out of 10. Only 9 cause he’s shy. haha. The other guy is PJ. He’s kinda cute. I’d scale him a 7? haha. Last one, the one I looooooveee talking to is Eric. He’s cute if he keeps his hair short. BUTT, he’s kinda weird…But I love talking to him! I met him when we were both practicing batons at the track. :) So cute. HAHA. But if I rated him, it’s be a 9. 9 because he’s awk at times, because I like talking to him, because he’s planning on growing his hair into a nasty emo long hair thing (which I have seen before and is DISGUSTING! haha), 9 because for the first time I’ve found a guy who I like for the personality more than the looks. It’s kinda amazing for me, haha.

Cat & Lorene. Oh gosh. Doesn’t this get tiring hearing about the bullshit I put up with? I hate them. Lorene and I made up (have I told you what happened? tell me if i did or not cause i dont wanna write a long story right now, haha) but really, I only made up because it made everything so g’damn awkward because she was in 4 of my 6 classes, and in those classes, she sat RIGHT NEXT TO ME, and she is in my groups! AND she sits at the same table I do at lunch! AND she’s cool with everyone I am. So what the hell? Might as well make up cause everything is so damn awkward. BUT I DON’T CARE about our “friendship” anymore. I can care less. Know why? She still treats me the same. They both leave me out, and I’m just fuck it. By the start of next year, I should be away from you guys anyway. And you know what? Both of them still don’t know they’re shutting me out. I swear there was this one time, where the both of them were “fighting” (like little kids..y’know, HELLA ANNOYING AND LOUD) and it was getting so agitating, that I just yelled “SHUT THE FUCK UP!” And y’know what they did? Laughed. And kept going. G’damn. So fucking annoying. So whatever. I don’t care. They go everywhere together anyway. It’s like they should become a couple. Jeeezus.

Um. Track. Sucky ass coach. i swear when I gave coach e the evaluations, they were the most amazing bullshit I’ve ever given. But it was true. I mean, one of questions asked: “What did you learn about your coach/What did you learn from him?” I said that I learned how to make bird calls and he can drive the van well. And I’m serious. That’s all I learned. I had another coach from Bell coach me and some others anyway. I was always with him than my own coach. Dumbass. I made CCS too. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever competed in. It really is THE BEST OF THE BEST. And you know what sucks? I did so bad that day, haha. But at least I qualified right? That I got to go there and see what level I should be next year, and what I’m up against? Yeah. Pretty good. :)

Oh jeezus. It’s nighttime. I’m staying up until my eyes won’t open. But I slept at 4 yesterday, so I should tolerate sleeping late. :) Ok bye. Love/Miss you big sis ! <3

Hi,

I’ve thought that you wouldve blogged by now, but i guess not. i haven’t talked to you since last year, a long time ago, yeah? well i miss you. it’d be cool if we talked sometime. love you very much big sis.
love, little.

:)

Happy new year! :) I hope you had a good one, bwahaha I know its late, lmao, but still.  I haven’t done much, nothing at all really. Just got closer with my friend Angelica, which pissed Lorene off a bit. But we’re cool now. I was surprised with my final grades, which I actually studied for about 4-5 days. But yeah, I just wanna do better.

So I ran today the Guadalupe River Trail with my friend, and OMG, it was terrible. I’m so out of shape, hahaha. Like we ran all the way to Columbus Park,the one near Bell. It was craaazy. And we got hit on by some muy feo frijoles! And chased by a crazy ass dog! Man and SJ is FULL of homeless guys.

Uhhhhm hm. Well I miss talking to you! I know I say that in almost all or some(?) of my posts, but I do.  I miss you at school too. Having a hella cool senior that few freshmen(last year) knew.  And I miss just talking to you. When I found out you were at ND during the JV bball practice, or that one college info night? I was pissed, and I tried to find you, but I couldn’t. It just sucks cause my other ND big sister I got paired up with barely even talks to me. Yeah we say hi in the halls and whatever, but that’s pretty much it. Even the journal we have together is boring. I give it back the next day or two, she gives it back it maybe 2 months. But anyways,  you’re so busy with having that amazing or hectic or whatever first college year, so I don’t wanna intrude. Well…yeah.

Hahaha, I don’t know really.  :/ But I’m not gonna wait for it or anything. I’ll just go with the flow.

WELL, I have to go to vegas next week. Monday to new year’s day, till like 3 that day.  And that’s all of break I have left really. I don’t have your phone #, so

you text me, :] haha

Awwww…so how was winterball with him!? Was it great?! Are you guys gunna get back together?!

And yessss I’m in San Jose! I have so much to tell you lol. There’s this kid Donald…but like iono…he lives here in San Jose…it’s hard to explain. I kind of have to tell you in person. But yea, text me! I want to hang out!!!

And I want a lettermen jacket! I’m so jealous…I never got one! lol

Christmas

is coming! YAAAAAY! You’re coming back to SJ riiiight?! :D I’m excited. I hope you are cause I miss you!

Anyways, even though its late, I had Winterball. My baad, I didn’t put up photos, cause I’m too lazy. Cause they’re already printed, since my friend’s mom took them, so I have no file on anything to upload…but I looked HOT if I might say…haha, I wore extensions, and I looked pretty good! bwahaha. Just had to say.  My date was with Alex. Ugh. So yeah, I like him, but who doesn’t still have feelings for their first crush am I right? Y’know theres always that special place when it comes to them riiight? Well yeah.  But I know we’ll never get anywhere, knowing him, haha.  But whatever happens happens! ;D

SO yeah, that’s all I have to say for now.

OH! I’m getting my letterman jacket for xmas! I’m soooo excited, haha.

Yaaaaaaaay!

You finally blogged back, hahah. Huh, so that’s how your college life is going eh? BE CAREFUL! Baby mama’s are not crackalackin! xP anywayyyys, I never knew you wanted to be a teach yooo! That’s coool, its good that you want to be something you’ll love doing! :]

Yeah ND’s not that great I guess. But I’m not really caring anymore, I’m just takin it where its taking me, so whatevvs.

AW THAT SUCKS mucho about you and justin. Don’t worry about it, you’ll find mr. right soon enough. And yeah, I get what you’re talking about true love never dying…

which leads me to my next topic!

Alllright, so during freeblock me and my friends got talking and had heart to hearts and stuff, and alla sudden we got on the topic of alex, my ex boyfriend. (the 4 year relationship guy) and then we talked about winterball. I wasn’t going because I didn’t have any guy to ask, but my friend kept pushing me to ask alex, and shes just saying that she knew i still had feelings for him, and i should just do it. But I said I wouldn’t. So that got me thinking for a few days, and yesterday, when I was at a party, lorene&megan&cat&alina&Ava (yeah ava b) told me I should ask him, so i was kinda pressured, but at the same time, i kinda wanted to ask him, but I was afraid of him thinking of me as a freakin physco(sp?) who can’t get over him. But I ended up sending a pic message of me holding a paper saying will you go to winterball with me to him. He kept avoiding the question and ended up never answering. So I saw him today @ confirmation, and he was like “here, I made these this morning.” So I looked at it, and it said “sure” on the cookies. Though it didn’t look great and appealing at the moment, I’m happy he did something special to say yes to me instead of over a text. I NEVER thought he would do that, which really made my day. :]

Yeah, I still have feelings for him, but I’m SO afraid of what he’ll think of me if I ever hint/show to him I do like him still.  He’s my best friend now, and I don’t wanna lose that. So I’m scared if I tell him I have feelings for him, and he doesn’t feel the same way, and it becomes all awkward again, and we don’t talk.

I don’t know, I’m just saying. But I’ll really just have to wait till winterball to see.

K, <3/Miss you!

Hi babysister!

I’m so sorry I haven’t been updating this AT ALL! The past like 10 posts were from you :(

Oh god…College life is SO psycho. Really, its stressful, huge, crazy, and full of temptation. Like no joke, not to sound like a whore or anything, but there’s alot of guys here in Arizona and uhh…let’s just say I’m not too proud of what I’ve done, buttttt if it counts, they were cute? lol…and yea…I said THEY. -___- I’ll send you a message with a list of their names so you can check them out on facebook or something lol.

I don’t know if you keep up with my personal blog, but it basically explains my life. Well, not really, I try to keep that one vague since I know people read it and are all up in my biddness haha. I changed my major from biochemistry to Secondary Ed (history). Yea, I want to be a history teacher. I know that pay might not be appealing, but I love history and I love high school kids and I would love to be that great teacher that they’ll remember for the rest of their lives, nahhmean?

Speaking of high school, I see that life at Notre Dame is still the same for you. Don’t worry, you’ll learn to love and appreciate everyone at that school, and for those who aren’t exactly on your good side, they’ll be gone after high school. &&& Do you have a little sister yet? Strange to think that my little is going to have a little. I guess that makes her tiny? lol wow…horrible joke.

Coach E? Yea, he has his asshole moments. Sometimes I feel like I kept him in check. I basically told him during his first year coaching that he was a dick and that he’s an asshole of a coach and he thanked me for that. I guess since I left his old, crabby self is coming back to the surface. I’m sorry for his actions. Poor guy just doesn’t know when to act appropriately.

I found out about a month ago that my first love, Justin, the one who took me to his prom and shit, never got over me during high school. I balled my eyes out because throughout the 4 years of high school, I thought about him all the time and thought about our chance of getting back together and if he wanted me back and it killed me not knowing. Now what kills me is knowing that we had the chance right there…for FOUR YEARS…and now it’s gone. I’m in Arizona. He has a new girlfriend. We’re over. Yet, I still love him and I still think of him all the time. I guess real love never dies.

Other than that…I can’t really think about anything HUGE to tell you at the top of my head. Do you have a personal blog? Gimme that you hoe! lol

I love you and miss you all the time. I have a picture of you and I hanging on my wall :)

K, hopefully I get to see you during christmas break!

xOXoXoxOx’s from AZ!

-Big

By the way,

my life is okay I guess. I wake up, eat, school, homework, eat, sleep. Rinse repeat man. I don’t know why I’m stressing so much and it’s only sophomore year. I really have nothing to do, since I don’t do any sports besides Track. It’s like the only thing to keep me occupied is worrying about my academics. NERD MUCH? Wtf.

So anyways,

Today was Lorene’s birthday, and I don’t know why I worked so hard to beat Cat. Well our friendship isn’t the same as last year anymore, she’s more like #1 best friends with Cat, and I guess I’m #2, but it’s almost like I’m incomparable when it comes to Cat. Lorene never tells me anything anymore, it’s almost just like, I hang out with her a lot and have a lot in common with her, but that’s it. We say we’re bestfriends, but I think its just words.

I’m good with Reese and all, we’re just both swamped with daily life to meet anymore. -_-”

COACH E IS A DOUCHE. I swear he likes to humiliate me and degrade me whenever he can. I hate him.

Anyways,

I miss you! You’re so busy with the college life and everything you never seem to blog on here anymore. I want to hear what’s up and how you’re doing, what’s bugging you and what’s just, new, y’know?

Well I hope you read this sometime. Love you big sister<3